Hi, little blog.
Once again it's been a bit since you have seen a post, but I think it is time to share again.
Goodness, you have seen some years. Years of growth in who Jesus is and how He carries season by season.
This post will be no different than the others– it's a signpost, a memorial. It is a claim that once again the Lord is showing His faithfulness and unchangeable-ness to you.
Except this time, it feels like the first layer in your truly adult years. You are no longer the 12-year-old baby believer tucked away in your mother's clothing store, logging on to do your homeschool curriculum with simple Bible verses pasted above your school desk as you learn to stand firm against the evil one.
You are no longer the itty-bitty 14-year-old walking into Lamar High School ready to "be a light" to all her peers, hoping to please her Abba by being a good witness and soldier for Him. You are no longer the 18-year-old sitting in her classes at OBU thinking she has all the answers and knows how this will play out, living in the familiarity of a campus she knew for years before even arriving as a freshman.
No, now you are a mere 22-year old. Freshly humbled. Realizing you have no idea how any of this will turn out. You do not know if or whom God will provide as a spouse. You do not know which friendships will be lasting and which ones will not. You don't know how He will call you to specifically serve Him in the coming years or where you will even live in the next 3-6 months as you continue navigating this season of theological studies.
You do not even know what your spiritual growth will look like in the coming weeks and which layers of your old nature He will sift and expose, comfort and heal.
You do not know.
You are not in control.
This is not your world.
But...
You do know one thing,
The truest thing.
You know the Lord God.
The One who made the heavens and earth and in whom there is no shifting shadow. You know Him who has made you complete and called you His own.
And that is all you need to know.
Because He is the same One leading you through this season as He was leading you through all the other ones up to this point. And He has gotten you through each of those, hasn't He? This one will be no different.
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You see, the difficult thing about transition seasons is your world changes, or so it seems. New things are added to your plate. New circumstances. New feelings. New struggles.
It can feel disorienting and confusing.
But it hit me today to finally admit to myself that my world does in fact look different in this season. I am no longer the pre-teen homeschooler, or the high school cheerleader and student council leader, or OBU student. My world has changed. It is expanding. There are new pressures and circumstances. New feelings and struggles. New fears and loves.
But in the midst of that confession– once I am honest about that– the truth sets in. The Lord rules over all these new things too. Just because my world is expanding and changing does not mean His has. In fact, He has ordained this new season.
That brings tremendous comfort and ease, even in the midst of what can feel extremely disorienting.
And I am reminded that this hasn't been a "new" feeling. Each season's change has felt hard, different, new, and scary. It's just that this one has shown the most contrast and intensity up to this point.
But my Abba is over it all.
It is as if my heart finally settled to some extent today, that though my world is changing, He truly doesn't.
I don't like my world to change. I don't like the black and white boxes to be moved. But oh the comfort in realizing and remembering that there is One who created me who rules over all the boxes. And He places and organizes them in a way that is far better than my way.
He isn't a God who delights in disorienting and bringing confusion to our "worlds", but rather calls us to trust in the way He orients and orders the world He has made.
What a thought.
May we stop striving against that. Or at least may I stop striving against that. Because it is there that there is sweet, sweet rest.
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I don't know what season you are in. Whether you are just entering college, marriage, or welcoming another baby into your home. Whatever the transition, I encourage you, look to the One who rules over the transition.
Your world and experience are expanding and it can be incredibly frightening because you feel out of control and unprepared, but take heart in that you serve a God whose world never expands or changes.
Because His Sovereignty rules over all.
May that bring fresh hope and peace to your worried, striving soul.
Your fellow sis in Christ,
Brooklyn